God's Best is Our Best

February 28, 2018

I walked out the house with a roller in my hair. I went to Target and smiled at the check out lady, I went to the bank to deposit some money and discuss opening up a new account for Pearls of Hope. I went to Starbucks and held a whole conversation with a woman who had a Louis Vuitton briefcase on her shoulder. And as I walked to my car, sipping my caramel frappucino with the extra-extra caramel drizzle, the sun was at the perfect angle for me to see myself in the reflection of my car and there it was: a green flexy rod that I had forgotten to take out. #GoodGrief


"I really need to do better".


Have you ever heard someone say that? Have you ever said it to yourself? I think we all have. I've whispered it to myself many times. I've pondered it in my mind, written out goals in journals about how I would do this differently, or focus on this aspect of my personality more or pray harder for specific areas in my life that I know weren't that great. Have you ever pondered words like these:


"I need to get my life together"

"I need to change"

"I need to focus more on me right now"

"I need to figure things out"


All these comments sum down to one very false reality that we keep pressuring ourselves with:

"I Need to Create Perfection for Myself".


Consciously (or sub-consciously)  we believe the lie that we have to be at our best in order to thrive. We think we have to be on our best behavior, with lipstick on, fully cloaked in God’s Word, money in the bank, a man at our hip, successful in our affairs, dressed in our cutest outfit with painted nails and at least 50 "likes" on our last post in order to be or feel our best.  Why? Because our best is what people need from us. Our best is what will keep us special and unique and desired. It's our best that is required in order to have prayers answered and impact people and receive God’s favor and blessings in our lives.... That’s how it works, right?


The thing is… we all struggle, from time to time, with thinking this way. But this isn't successful. It's failure because the pressures we put on ourselves to be pulled together and perfectly postured in order to see a difference and live in an abundant state  is impossible. We demand that others accept us for who we are: "flaws and all"; but we are our worst critics and, sometimes, we are the worst critics towards others. It's time to stop creating pressure because it doesn't result in perfection.


Being a Pastor's daughter, I tended to put pressure on myself to be "on": big smiles, even when I didn't want to, free hugs for strangers, knee length skirts (at church, lol), hair combed, memory verse known, wait quietly while daddy is talking to another person who felt like it was appropriate to pull up a chair to our family table at Olive Garden because they needed some quick spiritual advice and pastors are never off.....

Even as a little girl, it was so hard to avoid the misconception that perfection is what's most pleasing. 


When I began modeling, the pressure to be poised and perfect on the outside, weighed even heavier than the pressure I put on myself to be at my best on the inside. For two decades of my life, I thought looking the part was synonymous with being the part. But God has been re-shaping this mentality in me, over the past few years and I'd like to share these lessons with you. 


#1: Getting my life together, doesn't require me. It requires God. 

"Beloved, we are God's children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when He appears we shall be like Him, because we shall see Him as He is" {1 John 3:2}


God is developing us. The fact that we are aware of areas that need mending, improving and fixing should lead us to God, not to ourselves. Listen, let God do the changing! Just show up, willing and ready for whatever He chooses to accomplish in you! He is your best and all you'll ever need!



#2: Your flaws are a perfect invitation for God's presence.

"Now to Him who is able to keep you from stumbling, and to present you faultless before the presence of His glory with exceeding joy, to God our Savior, who alone is wise, be glory and majesty, dominion and power, both now and forever. Amen" { Jude 1: 24-25}


God's presence keeps us from falling. His glory opens the door for our growth and advancement. His love over us presents us as faultless, even though there is much fault with each of us. But still, God desires to dwell within us, not for our glory, but for His, simply because He loves us.